I know what you're going through.

My life is ruled by my anxiety. I have no real life friends whatsoever. I'm depressed, lonely and I too think about just ending it all sometimes.

You're not alone. 

I understand EXACTLY what you are going through.   I am extremely anxious and feel like I would rather be gone than go through what I do on a day to day basis.  I don't really have any close friends either.  The best advice I can tell you is remind yourself of the things you do have that others may not.  Don't you think someone that's blind would change postions with you in a heartbeat just to see what we see everyday?   At least SA is treatable, you know?  I understand that you probably think that you'll never get over it but you have to seriously believe that you can overcome this, and you can.   Everybody can. .....  What works for me sometimes is to stop anticipating the worst and expecting the best to happen.  I'm telling you first hand it really works.  Just want to let you know that you are not alone.  Anytime you need to talk- I'm here Okay.  Don't give up!!!!!

It's hard, but the future is out there.  It's waiting for you to take it.  You have the courage to open up here, so that is a great start.  Use what you learn here to try out in the real world. :)

It's not easy, but it is worth getting to know yourself :)