Today was my first day of college. I was so nervous to the point I feared I wasn't going to be able to speak! But the day went okay. I was so high in anxiety that when I was able to calm down, I was dead tired. My eyes and my body, just fatigued. And to think this was only day one. I hope I will be able to get comfortable somewhat. I know I will not be completely compfortable. I know I will sleep good tonight. Classes are only on Mondays and Wednesdays, 12:00PM to 5:40PM. First class ends at 1:15, so there's a big gap. I was so nervous, walking to the library for some reason. I guess because I've never been there. I just hate walking around my school while people look at me like I'm some creap or something. I feel that way. I feel so awkward and different. I hate my SAD. It makes me different from everyone else. I haven't ment anyone who suffers the same as I do in person. I don't know why we SADs are far from each other, making me feel that I'm alone. I know I'm not but I would like to meet someone in person who has SAD. I feel like I'm the only one who has it at my school. I'm alone.
