So went out tonight and hung out with a friend and watch a movie (good luck chuck) one of those movies that they guy gets the girl in the end, becuase you know how many time that really happens , its always a good story but you know it really dosnt happen alot, it can, but still, so yeah SA sucks, what a ramble on my part, now stay tune for another poem lol  

Lost

Lost with no way to get home

how scary that is

I dont know the way home

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I'm in week 10 of my audioseries "overcoming social anxiety" put out by Dr. Richards at the Social Anxiety Institute in Phoenix AZ. I'm also currently taking zoloft but so far it's done nothing but make me sleepy. I'm going to try and convince my Dr. to put me on Nardil since I've heard so many good things about it. Anyway despite my reservations about moving away from my family I plan to move out to Phoenix and join Dr. Richards local CBT group. I feel sometimes like I need to leave NC so I... Read More

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Almost all of the time I feel as if I don't really have social anxiety, mostly probably because I'm not out in the "world" a lot and the rare times that I am, I don't feel that nervous because I'm with my mom and there aren't many people around, it's not an every day thing. But at times like these, which I will share with you in a minute here, I think...ok I do have anxiety or I wouldn't have acted this way! right? Anyways....

Here's some of my thoughts today when I went downstairs... Read More

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I had noticed that a lot of people who create drama, are people who've had it easier then me. Things were handed to them, life oppertunities were rained down upon them. Notice that some of them are blessed with beautiful features. Some of them flawless. So why create drama? I don't understand their need for the chaos, i guess unless because they have complete control over it.

But i guess there are the ones with drama going on in their lives that they can't help, but are intralled with k... Read More

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So I'm moving this from the "About me" part to here so I can add some other stuff there....

Hm...what to say? I'm not very good at this whole social networking stuff. I've been dealing with SA and Depression for most of my life, was actually diagnosed around 6 years ago...maybe longer. It happens to be very severe and after 6 years of therapy and medication I'm still affected by it greatly.

I had to be home-schooled because of it and in the end I tested out of High School at 16.... Read More

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