I feel like SA makes me such a paranoid, delusional person. It's like if only someone would actually make fun of me to my face I would know, or something to that effect. I don't even think I would be upset, but more like relieved...finally knowing what I think is true...I knew I can read minds..lol. So basically SA makes me think that everyone thinks I suck, I'm ugly, I wierd, insert other demeaning word. It's like the opposite of narcissism, ok not really, but you know what I'm getting at. Why can't I convince myself I am the greatest thing since sliced bread? That would be a way better delusion. That's it...I'm the greatest friggin' thing that ever graced this planet with it's presence...nope... I still don't believe it...oh well.
