I'm so pissed off at myself for trying out for this inside sales position at loopnet. Actually i'm embarassed cause it's phone based and me and the phone don't get along at all. This job recruiter called me today and asked if i was interested in this job. Stupid me said yes. So one of the requirements is to leave a 1-3 mins phone message talking about how I would be right for the job. The recruiter wanted me to leave a practice message on her voice mail. First try, i ######## screw up and stumble over my words like an idiot. I hang up cause that's the only thing i could do. I try a 2nd time and i ramble in my incoherent painfully slow way. I take too long and the voice mail actually says i have 15 secs left. Gawd i hate this. This is a big company and looks like a good opportunity, but i just can't handle leaving a simple message. I can't tell you how ######## painful this is. I've never been good with words especially verbally. It's hard for me to even string two sentences together without a laborious pause. I can't fucking think when i'm nervous. It's too much. Now this recruiter is going to call me back tomorrow and critique my message before i leave the actual message with the company. What the $&#^% am i thinking!? I think i'm just going to tell her i just can't do it. I hate it when i'm this anxious.
