my loneness at work usually presences itself during lunch time. I go into the cafeteria and it's too crowded, it's a stage and there is no way of clearly knowing who controls the spotlight. I go to my desk only to wait for a conversation starter to come at me, or drum up something worth talking about to people who are far far away from my age and just assumed that I have a wild story to tell them, some smashing party of a weekend that would get some laughs around the office. It's like I am swimming on safe ground at my desk but there is hardly anyone to swim with the current of company. There is always a distance, a something that makes conversation at lunch so hard to feel anything but alone. I hate lunch. I use to hate breakfast for the simple fact of having difficulty digesting a bowl of cereal. Now it's lunch for social isolation? It was odd on Friday when a few of us saw a gathering of coworkers, food being passed, and chatting it up just at the other end of our offices, within walking distance. The director just stood there wondering what the heck was going on. I found it odd that there would be such seclusion during lunch on a Friday with the director not knowing or no announcement being made of it. I probably should have gone down there to see what it was all about but I had my lunch and figured I rather be sitting on the director's side than appearing to be asshole that didn't bothered to invited the person that hired me. I guess, we all have our issues at lunch...