I went to the ups store to ship some stereo equipment that i sold on audiogon (ebay for audio nuts) I always see this girl there who usually rings me up. I talked to her a few times and was sort of flirtatious to her in a very innocent way. Her name is Kelli. But this time, she was with a customer so another girl helped me out. So while Kelli was talking to her customers(some old folks with a nice twisted sense of humor), I was thinking about saying hi to her but i was so nervous with all the people around, that i could'nt do it. So finally after about 5 mins and i'm done with my package, Kelli says hi and i said hi back softly. And that was it, I left the store immediately. On the one hand, she did recognize me, on the other hand, how can i be so afraid to say hi to somebody. It sucks!
I talked to my psych yesterday on the phone and i'm going to see her on Tues. It's been 3 months since i've last seen her and when she asked what i've been doing for the past 3 months, I said "nothing". I don't have health insurance anymore cause 1- I don't have a job 2- the insurance company rejected me cause of my depression. At least she's nice enough to give me a discounted rate. Kinda nervous to see her since i've been spinning my wheels since i quit my job.
Dave drunk called me last night at 2:45 in the morning. 1st time in a long awhile so at least i'll give him that. Hopefully the next one won't be until next year!
