I haven't been logging on here as much lately; I can't really say why because I like this site.
Anyway, these past few days I've been feeling much more lonely that usual; mostly because I broke up with my boyfriend a few days ago; but I think it's also because I'm living on my own now, in addition to the fact that my so-called best friend never calls/talks to me anymore. I really can't call her that anymore, because we've definently grown apart lately. It's all about to drive me freakin' insane. Why, why, why is it so hard for me to make and keep friends? I hate that my brain and my thoughts are so screwed up; I hate that these mental illnesses make life such a struggle for me. I'm just utterly confused right now.
I've always been the type to keep my emotions to myself; to not let someone know if they hurt or upset me in some way; but I'm tired of being that way, I'm about to start telling some people exactly how I feel, and I don't give a crap what they think anymore. I'm just tired of holding everything inside I guess.
Sorry to sound so angry and pessimistic; but I needed to let that out.
