I work at the supermarket/grocery store. As soon as i put my work uniform on and clock in I feel like  I am superman. If i see a complete stranger that intrest me i simply walk up him/her or them and easily start up small talk which I can easily turn into a major confersation. I do this all day long with ease.

Then I punch that time clock take off my apron and all of a sudden I am like clark kent. Its like putting on my work clothes brings me special powers but if i take it off I... Read More

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I said I would write things out here but I have been avoiding it. Sorry.

My major SA began earlier this year when I had a miscarriage (its worse now but thats a later thing)...Very emotionally traumatic for me I guess - I really believed that I was going to be ok and I could deal with it when the time came. However when the passing came it was very painful and I was completely alone because the father after an awful relationship wasnt around. Its also my own fault I was alone becaus... Read More

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I don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel tired and down. my bf is leaving the state, but in a way that's good. I think that we were both tearing each other down and the both of us can start over with our lives. He worried about me being upset when he leaves, well he can't be to worried because he's alwyays on the phone or internet when I come over. I will be so glad when all of this is over. I know that I can get through this because I have been through worse. Thing is I am not sur... Read More

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So after many months of resisting getting back on meds my doc wants to put me on "Pristiq". I guess it is supposed to treat anxiety and depression- has anyone been prescribed this med? It is pretty new-and I wanted to see if I could get some feedback- I am a little leery after finally getting off of the benzo's a few years ago. Thanks!

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