1st off,sorry its been so long,i havent had much interest lately in much of anything...im still not drinkin,so atleast i havent let any more trouble in my life.
i cant go into detail,only to say my heart is broke,crushed,,,ive never felt pain in my soul as this.all i can say is everything i ever wanted was in "IT"...it was my fairytale dream come true...and i realize its unrealistic to try and harness "IT" because "IT" is a free spirit...
...this doesnt even make sense to try and explain...becuz i cant give "IT" a name,so i guess this blog is for me ...lol
