I Feel like I have to introduce myself. First of all Jack is not not real name. There are three things I would like to keep private my name my photo My Job. Why? Because I'm laying down my true feelings, my problems and my mental baggage. I’m here to get things out of my head. I used to go to support group in Manhattan for the adult survivors of child abuse, I found that there was an incredible bond in that room. Everyone bared their souls and talked about things they never shared with their closest friend or family, but they did in front of a room of complete strangers that endured the same hardships. I can't go to the group any more due to not living in the city anymore and other obligations. I guess I'm trying to duplicate that experience here. Most of My hang-ups have been too due with my upbringing and difficulties that come from ADD. By all measures I'm doing good now but I have such a hard time dealing with the contradictions of my life. I wasn't supposed to make it.
Even though my name isn't Jack "Bastard" is what my father used to call me in his native tongue(Brazilian) is as if he purposely tried to destroy my self-esteem as early as he could. By many measures he succeeded, as you can imagine I don't really talk to him. I have a son he's four I love him more than life itself. But being a father is bitter sweet in terms of it puzzles me how my father could say the things he did to me. for a long time I used to thing I deserved it. I try to learn from experinces,take my bad childhood and do the opposite. Any way I thought an introduction was in order, thanks for listening. I dont know what the hell happened to my font size WTF.
