I normally do not feel like this but I feell that something has to change about me, and I know exactly what...I think I am afraid to succeed in friendships... I set my self up for failure because of excuses like homework or stress or jobs. I am such a friendly guy, lol i believe, but do not really have any friends...Because of not drinking annd not doing drugs...i dont know where i am going to find peoplle like me...last time i drank i got so depressed. i dont want to do it again. I am sitting here eating an asian salad from mcdonalds and I want to find a new job....However my parents do not want me to b/c of the hecticness....I i feel i need to... I am an adult can choose what i want to do...I do not know if am right or they are...I have a horrible job paying min. wage at a convience store. I dislike the workload for no pay. But I am obligated to this store b/c the owner let me have an old job back at least for now....
I think i need to change my habits...i should look at my calender every day and keep things scheduled. If nothing is scheduled i will try to schedule something to keep me occupied instead of sitting here alone talking about it lol.
