Okay, so this is my first time writing a blog EVER. I have myspace and facebook and I used to have xanga years ago too but I never really wrote anything personal; mostly because I'm too shy to even write online cause I think no one cares enough to read... but it might be different here, I don't know.
I'm very glad to have found SAF. I actually found it by browsing through links on msn... they were kind of making fun of the site. After browsing through blogs and pr... Read More

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I want to have friends; or at least A friend. I think. I always found having friends was too much work and most of the time I think I'm just better off being alone, but I still get lonely sometimes. Like, lately I've been really wanting to just get laid, but I'm not the type of person to just go meet a random person and sleep with them, so I'd have to make a friend first and I can't do that.

The friends I used to have never understood me. They couldn't understand why I couldn't talk o... Read More

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I have very strong SAD like the rest of you guys. I can't stand being the center of attention or working/socializing with people. The anxiety and my confidence level killed the joy for me. Nevertheless I'm trying to keep a strong face and push myself to talk to strangers AND *tries not to slit throat* public speaking. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. I noticed most of the time in my new college environment, when I try striking up small talk with the pe... Read More

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Ten years ago, I was moving into the dorms and getting ready to start school.

I can't believe how much time has passed.

I regret not making the most of my freshman year. I missed out on a lot of fun stuff. After my freshman year, I moved to Las Vegas. I sometimes wish I didn't. But, after that experience, I ended up a little more mature. Sure, I was damaged emotionally from my relationship. 

I only lasted two years in Vegas. I ended up quite sick though. It sucked. I was hy... Read More

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It's almost safe  to say im in one of my worst times in my life...and worst im turning 20  in a few days...this is gonna be the worst b-day ever. I can already see it..Im jobless,friendless,my girl dumped  me like 2 weeks ago. Im F$%#$# done.Not even my family gives me support..Im fed up  with all this. To be honest I gave up on beliieving in god. Can't believe I left so many opportuniities just pass me by.. my life is being wasted with these four walls surrounding me..I c... Read More

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