hey guys im new here so ive started a blog for my use as a kind of diary and so i get feedback if possible.

saturday 11th October 08 - just passed miday and i feel lonely not having anyone to talk to other than over the internet. I have nothing to do all day plus having no money is annoying for me cos i have nothing to occupy myself with that seems enjoyable!Ive also had an argument wiht my parents so all in all im pretty pissed off! First bit of writing on here then theres n... Read More

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I've been at the same job for over a year now and around the same group of people too. Yet everyday I am still too nervous to talk to them beyond a simple hello (courtesies). It's the same thing with my boss too, I am courteous to him but I can't really develop a repetoire that other people on my team have been able to.

I have a very insular job which mainly relates to reading/replying to e-mail and handling correspondences so most of my communication is through online. Yet... Read More

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Well I made it to the class I wanted to go to! It went better than I had expected. At first, while trying to find the door and the place to meet, I was getting shaky, but then I was okay. Meeting them at first went okay. Then during the class I felt a bit calm, and I didn't really think about people looking at me. So that was good. I ended up having to introduce myself, but that wasn't too bad, even though I didn't really like it. Atleast one other person went before me. I just said "Uh my na... Read More

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I'm not really doing anything. Just watching random youtube videos. Yesterday morning wasn't good. I was like crying for an hour or so, didn't sleep til noon and then woke up at 7 pm. Ended up crying because of my sis, she said she wasn't okay and going to die because of being nearly homeless and starving. (Also because I have been thinking I just can't handle all of my problems anymore) I'm hoping to go to sleep soon or something, although I really don't care at the moment about an... Read More

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Well, I was determined to go...but I couldn't. I didn't feel well, all because of my stupid digestive problem. I hate that. I HATE IT. It holds me back almost all of the time from actually getting over this SA and Agoraphobia of mine. Whatever. Oh well. I wrote the director of the class an e-mail (left out the details) hopefully it will be okay if I could try next week, although I wanted to go today. If I do go next week, it's going to be weird....I'll be more noticed...*sigh* I was... Read More

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