my real name's sirpana but people call me sirra or amber (haha - don't ask!). i'm half finnish, half georgian. eclectic mix right? explains my love of stalin.

i like to philosophize, nap, eat odd sandwiches and read lots of books.

i live in finland, oulu to be precise. some people would think its not much, but to me its home and all i need for now.

i tend not to make too many friends, not because i'm shy or nervous, i just much prefer my own company most of the time.

i stay away from relationships because i'm not emotional enough for people. i don't get a kick out of expressing my feelings.

i like to think i can get along with most people, but gradually they find me tiresome so i ditch them before they have the chance to ditch me.

i'm known by the friends i do have, as the person who always says something silly. for example, "we're islands in the sea joo? So how come we don't float away with the waves?" or Riiku's personal favourite, "the biggest star in the solar system? obviously the north star." :S

i fear rejection as much as the next person i guess, but i don't know, i don't think i'm that anxious these days, i can just never quite be bothered to take as much interest in things as the people around me.

the never satisfied wishes, the frustrated efforts, the hopes unmercifully crushed by fate, the unfortunate errors of the whole life, with increasing suffering and death at the end are always a tragedy.