Reading.
Writing (stories, poetry, song lyrics, script).
Daydreaming.
Video games (started playing in 1979).
Watching movies and fascinated about the movie making process.
I have trained on and off in 5 different martial arts from the age of 8 until I was 34. Plus dabbled in 3 others. (The middle of) a furious punch up with someone can make me feel extremely peaceful and happy because it reminds me of my childhood. I stopped thai boxing recently after a number of years because I felt I wasn't behaving healthily anymore.
MOVIES
Mostly 'world cinema' titles these days. French cinema is just amazing and overlooked by too many people. French actors have so much maturity and depth.
Recent DVDs I've watched: Persepolis, Paris Je T'aime, Elling, Ballad of a Soldier, Brick, P.s. I Love You, Dead Man, Dan In Real Life, Semi-Pro, A Touch of Spice, A Good Year, Lions for Lambs, The Proposition, Family Guy presents Blue Harvest, Letters From Iwo Jima.
80s movies for when I'm feeling down. Especially St. Elmo's Fire, The Breakfast Club and About Last Night.
"Acting is a profession of sensitivity, not appearances". Check this clip out, it will brighten your day.
I love this film although it is very long and needs to be watched in two or three parts as they are three generational stories.
Connecting with creative people.
Protecting people.
Being single.
Having lots of women friends (let's have a coffee and a natter! lol)
Connecting with animals. I TALKS TO THE COWS I DOES.
Food. To look at.
Exercising once a day. Can get boring though.
Being really silly and making myself or others laugh.
People who are kind to me on a basic level.
TURN OFFS
Insensitive people.
Love (towards me) (Although basic kindness is ok).
People who think negative emotion is a waste. It's a form of energy - use it.
Animals in pain.
Physical closeness and intimacy. Makes my skin crawl to think of it.
Pretty people. Although I know some turn out to be really great so I try and be open-minded even if I'm already backing away.
A childhood dealing with hooligans:
ABOUT ME
Psych label: PTSD & Social Anxiety.
My label: Anti-hero with an ancient heart, open-minded, protective and unlovable but happier single than in any relationship.
I can sometimes feel guilty that I'm not in physical pain (from violence mostly). A hefty dose of pain makes me smile. This is something I need to unravel and work on. I see it as a sickness. I think I am only good for hurting and being hurt.
"What's wrong with me? I'm well preserved, adaptable, I have a nice car in running order... OK minus a wiper blade and one airbag but still... a salary not to be spat at (ok it's not great but) I have a decent sense of humor... I can laugh at lots of things, including myself. (In summary) I'm laughable. A lonely joke. My world is a glove box. Empty." - 'Montemartre' Bruno Podalydes.
"Lift the self by the self. Never let the self droop down. For the self is the self's only friend and the self is the self's only enemy"
-- Bhagavad Gita
Seek and ye may find. Post and ye will most certainly find.
Sent you a friends request since I can empathize with what you wrote in your blog. I traveled often and distanced myself from my friends on purpose, but at good points in my life I was very social...I kind of regret a lot of what I did.
